I want to start off by saying I don't know what you do on a daily basis, I don't know what career path you have choosen or where you are in life at this particular moment.
I want to also start with you didn't wake up this morning, April 7, 2017 to live a life of mediocracy. You woke up today to explore your passion and to be driven by your desires.
How you get there is your choice.
In my last blog post I mentioned how I hated being gone from MY blog, from MY goals and from MY desires. I had to put my blog, my goals and my desires aside for what I call hell-ship. I was a level two intern at a public relations firm and I can truthfully say I really disliked my days, weeks and months I was there. But I had to bite my lip and lower my head because my goal was to learn.
It wasn't so much the people but more so the environment of the place. The office ultimately felt cold and just wasn't a good working environment of solely women, who are extremely cliquish (you know they're cliquish when they say they aren't) and some quite judgemental of outsiders and newcomers. I loved the experience I had there because it showed me what I ultimately want out of life. I'm not an employee, I'm an owner. I'm not a follower, I'm a leader, but most importantly, it taught me how to run a business and how not to run a business... how to treat everyone, especially the little-bitty "interns." Some days the owner would come in and not even say a word to the interns. I'm sorry, but that's not okay, you are a business owner, everyone that is in your office should be treated with the same respect as those with slightly higher positions. My time at OPR taught me to value everyones work, it taught me that if someone is calling me an "intern" instead of my name in an email, I don't want to be there. I also realized how some businesses do have success, but remain stagnant in their success because their mindset is so antiquated. That's also not where I want to be. This isn't the era of email and virtual reality, this is the era of total and complete communication across all sectors. Typing less, calling more and learning new ways of interaction.
During the past few months I have felt several emotions, the stronger one was the feeling of being powerless.
I felt powerless because I was living a life I didn't love. Yes, I was living it temporary, but it was still vastly too long. I struggled with the notion of happiness and turned against my desires because I had literally become a walking, breathing zombie. I had been so sucked into someone else's business, I forget about my own business. It was a rabbit hole of turmoil that I had built up and finally is now released.
Earlier I said I had no idea where you are in your career, I don't, but, what I can say is I know how you feel if you are second guessing where you are working. I urge you to follow your gut. If their is a little someone in your head or a funny feeling in your gut, I encourage you to pay attention. Don't stay in a position, at a place you don't love just because you're scared of the unknown.
It has been in my experience that once I let go of fear, I welcome new beginnings. I left OPR Tuesday and three days later I am so much happier, I have more time to enjoy the little things and most importantly, I smile more, worry less and my attitude of positivity has spiked.
I forgot how wonderful the feeling is to go to the grocery store during the day and not on Sunday at 5 p.m. I was in a blissful state of heaven yesterday. When I walked into my local grocery store, I just felt so much gratitude for being there on my own time. It sounds silly, but it was an incredible moment.
It pains me to imagine that there are so many strong, fearless women in this world who are miserable in life because of the career path they have chosen, or that has chosen them. If I'm speaking to you, don't waste any more time, get out of your comfort zone, stop over thinking and just take the plunge, you have no idea where it can lead you. Have faith not only in yourself but in your work and in the unknown.