Last year on my 25th birthday I wrote a blog post on how I felt incomplete.
Last year on my 25th birthday I felt as if I missing something and that I was stuck.
Last year on May 3rd, I was driving to get my hair done and I vividly remember right while I was driving I just started crying. It was a monsoon of emotion. I cried because I was getting one year older and life felt as if it were moving so slow.
It's funny to think how life changes so quickly and you typically don't realize it until one year comes to pass.
I turned 26 a few days ago, and I'm so blessed to be in a different state of mind, with new people I surround myself with and with greater opportunities.
Last year I felt completely stuck because I was (still am for another month) living in Oxford, a small college town with nothing to do. I felt trapped here, confined without a way of getting out (it was a beautiful place to be during my college years, not so much now). It took me meeting Jeremy to realize there is so much more than Oxford and I'm not stuck, I have just allowing myself to think I was trapped.
I felt attached to Oxford because of the all the things I have give up, I felt as though I couldn't leave here until those things I were missing were complete.
My vision was to go to Nashville. I have dreamt of going there since I arrived at Ole Miss. It's funny how God puts you on the path you need to take rather than the path you want to take for yourself. It's remarkable how timing comes into play with all of this. I'm not going to Nashville yet, but where I'm going, I'm just as excited about.
I look back to last year, and I so much has changed. I have changed. I am not the same person I was. I am stronger, I am more passionate. I am more eager. I am over all happier.
I had an idea where I was going to take this post but, it seems I'm guided to write and share this message with you:
No matter where you see yourself in life right now, at this very moment. Next year, you will be somewhere different. Life is constantly changing. We are constantly growing. Allow yourself to open up to that change. Allow yourself to grow. You never are stuck anywhere. That is a complete misconception. Don't allow for your circumstances to tell you what is possible and not possible. Don't let your frame of mind control your actions. You are strong. You are wise. You are powerful. Take control of you and own it.
Most of us are dreamers, we love to spend our moments imagining what life would be like perfectly in our mind and try to manifest those images into reality.
Unfortunately, life sometimes intervenes and we have to take a step back from our perfect vision to deal with life at that moment. That moment can last days, weeks, months or even years. The positive thing is, those moments that test our spirit and soul or just temporary circumstances that have hidden blessings behind them.
Most of us have the wrong perspective of our dreams. We think that they will come to us to easily. That is far from the truth. We also think that if we put in a little effort we will still get our dreams.
That's not going to happen either, sorry.
If you really truly want something and massive change, you have to put in massive action.
No one likes to downgrade anything. If you drive a beautiful car or live in a lovely home you don't want to change it for something else that's not as nice (unless you have you, because you have no other options). We're always looking to meet our set expectations or we're searching for something to exceed our likes. Don't allow yourself to downgrade your dream because you feel it's out of reach. Simply upgrade your daily actions to meet your vision.